in the springtime for his voodoo

i've been having a weird/bad/off week. i think it's because it's my spring break, one of my good friends is moving to spain next month for several years, three of my friends met up for dinner to catch up in new york and i wasn't there, friends are moving around doing things, and i'm sorta feeling a little trapped.

springtime... when nature goes off balance to prep us for the rest of the year.

there are good things that happened this week, i had my first bbq at my place. phillip made a nice beef tip roast thing... and we made thai beef salad and also phillip made adobo chicken. brad came over which was great. justina and will were busy. i called several other people but no one else picked up the phone. that was sorta disappointing.

something sad and traumatic happened this morning.

first off, for some reason, most likely the warm weather, my turtle tank is getting more algae than normal. the water is turning green! so i decided that i would clean it up last night. i finished doing my taxes at brad's place, drove home, ate dinner and around 2:30am, i started cleaning it and i finished around 5am.

today, is trash day. so i had my left overs from dinner in the garbage, so i had to go throw it out in the trash so it'd be picked up.... at 5:15am, it's still dark.

i turned on the light in my back door and i proceeded to walk to the trash on the curb. and as i walked swifty, i slid on something round... like a twig or something. i didn't fall. i just slid for a second.

i stopped to see what it was... and it was too dark for me to figure out what it was. i ran to the trash can, dumped my trash, ran back, stopped, stared... and as my eyes adjusted, i saw something pink. it looked like a fetus. a human baby. about five inches long, in the fetal position.

first thought... someone had an abortion in my driveway. no. it couldn't be a human baby. then i thought it was the alien in alien. i ran inside the house, paced back and forth.... grabbed my camera to take a photo of it, just in case i was dreaming/hallucinating. i'm odd that way.

i go look at it again. whatever it was, i killed it.

i take a photo. i go online. i see that ming's online in nyc. we start messaging each other. i tell her it's not human. it's not a mouse, it's not a rat. it might be a bunny but it didn't have long ears... i upload the photo onto my computer to look at it. it has long legs!!! rats don't have that long of legs! and it has slightly white hair all over it. and sadly, blood and stuff was coming out of it. i think that maybe it's a kitten or a puppy. ming image googles baby rabbits and it's definitely a rabbit.

i start quietly freaking out.

i leave a note for ana to find in the morning when she gets up to get ready for work. "ana, i accidentally killed a bunny. it's next to the driver door of my car. please take it away for me. thank you. bunny killer."

i go lie down because i have never killed an animal before. well, not to my knowledge and i feel sad.

i am dead tired. i lie down and go to sleep. ana wakes me up several hours later and we're sorta both freaking out.

i am slightly not conscious. i go back to bed. i wake up around 2pm when saul comes over. and he walks right past it. and i'm in the bathroom going, "saul! i killed a bunny this morning by accident!!!! please take it away!!!!!" thankfully, he did. as he's cleaning it up... all i hear him say was "OH MY GOD..."

:(

later, we look over to the side of the house and there's a nest of white fur... the size of a volleyball. saul and i had to go around 3pm to cal state la, so we leave. ana calls me when she gets off work... and i tell her there's a nest of fur. she gets home and calls me around 4:45pm saying that i need to go home asap because there are a ton of bunnies in the nest.

i had to go to the post office to mail off my taxes after going to cal state. i am slightly squirmish for some reason. i'm sorta queasy (school issues, unsure if i did my taxes properly) so i stopped by starbucks to get a large iced vanilla latte. it's 5pm and i hadn't eaten anything except half a glass of pelligrino and two trident gum.

i get home and ana is like: "we have babies!!!!!"

but there are all these ants around it... so we start to pull out the fabric that was laying next to the nest as well as under the nest but we find two bunnies in that... and they're totally cold. they're squirming but cold. so she pick them up (they're the photos i've posted, one pink and one gray) and we cleaned them off of all the ants that were biting them (the gray one had these bite marks on the tail and it was sorta raw). so ana then puts them back inside the fur nest and then we pulled out the fabric and it's covered with ants. the reason why they're there is because of the birthing fluids from the mommy rabbit. it's also moist.





we take that out, and replace it with some soft downy fabric and we cut up another towel that is soft so they wouldn't hurt themselves if they squirm outside the nest. we let the original fabric dry up and then we put it back near the nest.

they are the cutest things ever. ana says she counted eight or nine of them.

we swept out all the ants to make sure they wouldn't bite them or kill them.

we've left it alone pretty much since then.... but we're totally going to check everyday to see their progress.

it's sorta sad happy that i had to kill the bunny for us to realize that there were bunnies.

ana, saul, and i then start looking at bunny clips on youtube.

we're excited.

i am feeling a little less bad about accidentally killing the bunny.